Lost and found and lost and found again

Wow… It’s been a long time since I did one of these. I hope all of you who follow these are doing well. So much has happened in these last 4 months since I updated you all on my life. As I said in my last blog I am now part of a 4 month discipleship program called CGA where God is moving so much in my life, and a lot of it in the past 2 weeks. And I’d love to share with all of you what some of that is. So after the race I kind of fell away from God being home and away from the community I spent nine months with was hard, and through it all I lost sight of God, but he didn’t lose sight of me(shocker I know right). After that when I came to. CGA I expected to fall back into that but I couldn’t have been more wrong. CGA isn’t even comparable to the race. When I got to CGA I count that I was having a very difficult time hearing from God and what he had to say, as well as I was trying to compensate for this by hearing what I wanted to hear when he did talk. And these last 2 weeks he has been taking me on this redemptive journey, revealing past pain and hurt, as well as trauma, and insecurities, and how he has remained ever present and all good throughout all of this. He also revealed to me just last night that one of my major insecurities is a massive desire to always be right, and how I have literally been trying to prove God, King of kings, Lord of lords, Creator of heaven and earth, I have been trying to prove him wrong. That went about as well as you’d expect. But God has also been reminding me of the many promises and gifts he has given me in my life and how he will remain faithful in all of them. God has finally been able to get through to me and show me just how I am fearfully and wonderfully made and how he didn’t make a mistake with me. Which was a very hard truth for me to accept for the longest time.

I just wanted to thank all of you for reading these blogs and for the prayer and support you have been giving me in this time. If you would like I would really appreciate if you would consider supporting me in this and the nest season as i follow the Lord in obedience as an international missionary whether that is as a one time donor or a monthly supporter or just in prayer it is all appreciated. So until we speak again stay safe and God bless you.